I am one of the proponents in the age old battle between the sexes and this post might irk my fellow feminists although i have to admit that men are really fun to be with. Of course im not saying that they arent assholes but they could be fun assholes most of the time, specially if there's no romantic or sexual involvement.

I've recently realized how men could be jerks even to the point that i almost cursed them but this morning, I had the chance to hang out with some of my new found friends from work. Particularly this one asshole that really made it clear from the start that he is a certified schmuck.

The reason why i tell this is because i went out with my new girl friends and that experience was nice and fun too however girls cant really help but to be vain, shallow and dramatic, I also went with my new gay friends and that's always fun although i just hate it when they try to compete for attention and when they make such a big deal of everything. I also had bisexual friends but they really could be confusing at times.

But with men, There's no confusion, no competition and no pretensions. Just clean and not so clean fun. I think the only problems arises when they let their dumbstick take over their brains and we all know this happens 90% of their total existence.

I remember the previous new year celebration, My mom and i was watching fireworks and i whispered to her that "this might be the last time i'll be celebrating this holiday in the philippines." I said that because i had laid my plans for 2008 and one of them would be to move to a different country but life throws in happy distractions and i enjoyed my stay. My two year friend from the US, came to visit me only to find out that im not the sole reason why he came here and untill now, his careless action still affects me in profound ways. Im partly to blame because he was careful for me not to move the whole universe for him but i did; and also I met wonderful friends who made me postpone my plans. 

Now another year has passed. 2009 promises alot of potential and oppurtunity but somehow, im not in any way looking forward to it. i feel exactly the same way a felt towards christmas and new year. "This day too will past but it doesnt mean i couldnt celebrate it with a bang". 

So i did,  I went out on new year's eve. Everyone was amazed for they havent seen me in centuries and i tell you, i was looking gorgeous, i even made some good-looking drunk twins swoon over me. but of course after the hype of the celebration, im back to my old speck like existence.

maybe this post has some kind of self pitty in it but somehow, I can finally enjoy alone walks with no one but myself and it felt wonderful. No more irrational thoughts that maybe im not good enough that's why im alone. Just a sense of "i am alone coz no one is available and it doesnt mean it's the end of the world that i am."

I occassionally feel lonely but somehow my "checking facebook or yahoo or windows live therapy" is no longer the main point. I even deleted some of my friends just to get rid of the clutter of useless and superficial patronage that envelops this side of my life.

And to Geisha, Honey, Tapsi, Ifoundme, Bombero king and the others, forgive me but im taking a selfish streak right now. I hope you understand, I visit you often but i keep my thoughts to myself rather than leave a comment.

Take care and BE MERRY~

The year has passed and there's a new one and people have been optimistic regardless of the dire reminder that there is a economic uncertainty looming.

well i just hope that people would stop waiting for the new year to wait for a better life, why cant we just wait for tomorrow and still hope for a better day than today? We really dont need to have January first to remind us of this hope. Do we?

On a personal note: im happy coz despite the sour life i had, I 've met Many who makes me feel that im someone interesting and this is all i need to make me feel this year could be different.

Wishing every one a LUCKY YEAR AHEAD>