I have been by myself all my life and this new beginning scares me

So i ask you NICOLE, would you hold my hands

and WALK ME HOME!

SOMETHING STUPID 

I know I stand in line
Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you

I can see it in your eyes
That you despise the same old lines
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you
For me it's true
And never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever
lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening
gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right
Your perfume fills my head
The stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you
I love you...

TALK TO YOU SOON

Talk about absent mindedness, I was talking with a customer but all i can think of is this particular man driving through the freeway on his way to visit friends. I was so engrossed dreaming about him that i called the customer "honey". It was so embarrasing coz the customer said he likes me too but he's happilly married and then laughed.

Ok, so what's been going on about me? all this crazy daydreaming and fantasizing about this special guy.

Well, i cant help it. There has been other guys that showed interest in me but this one is different. I simply adore him. He has this effect on me that makes me long to talk to him.

His voice is addicting. I can imagine him sitting beside me just talking and i would consider that moment to be the best time of my life.

I know this could all be just a fantasy. An image, feeling and situation that i create to fulfill my longing for love.

I have been warned to be cautious, not to build my whole life on this person. and not to believe everything.

and personally im scared. all those what if's bugging me. i'm afraid coz this might not be true, this could be all just a nice dream.

Im afraid that im being to clingy and demanding considering this is not even a relationship.

I wish whatever it is that im having now would be something substancial and real in the future.

coz if this was just a game, then i'll be sad!

C - Creates a sense of comfort and care

H - Holds a part of my heart, my present and hopefully my future

R - Redefined life for me

I - Instilled Hope and love

S - Saved me.

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Coming from a life of uncertainty and hurt, you saw me, You saw something that no one even dared to look at. You made me feel that i am special, that i am worth something.

Hiding inside my protected world, You invited me out, Lending your hand and supporting my weak body to stand up and face the world that i know would hurt me.

Reassuring me that you're here to cover me, to be my santuary when i cant take anymore, To be my strenght, my voice and my light when clouds of doubts fill me.

Inspiring me to shine, to be free and to be me. REAL and TRUE, The way you saw and imagined me to be.

Securing my life for victory, setting the path for glory. and simple seeing me.

Welcome, clio! You have 0 unread messages: I have been told not to expect too much but i cant help but be sad. NO emails???

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The smell of fresh garden drenched with the morning dew

The golden sunlight enveloping my skin,

Warm breeze embracing me.

Heaven, heaven is what i feel.

You came in my darkest hour.

Bringing me home.

covering me with warmth

easing my pain.

I imagine your touch

i imagine your kiss

i imagine your arms

touching, kissing, holding me

Th distance between us

The diffirence of our lives

makes it difficult.

oh how i hate difficult.

i want you near. i want you here.

be mine, BE US!

I was walking in makati one fine afternoon. The sun with its golden rays glistening on every surface i see. Then a tap on my shoulders "excuse me miss! i didnt want to bother you but im kinda lost, dont know whom else to ask for direction, can you pls help me?" it was a man, standing 5'10 infront of me, with the most compelling eyes looking intently at me, begging me to help him. "Where are you going?" i asked. "I need to go the shangrila plaza hotel, by the way my name is christopher" then he offered me his hands, as our palms touched, sparks raced through my body. the feeling was intense, as if i was struck by lightning. NICOLE was the only word i uttured and from that moment on i was like under a trance, time stopped, the whole city blurred. Only one thing remained clear, the magnetic man infront of me holding my hand.

"Nicole? uhummn" im back to reality, realizing how silly i looked. Little embarrased i took my hands back and offered to get him a cab. "Now that's the thing, i dont wanna get a cab coz i wanna experience public transportation, i heared about um errr whacha callit? a jeepney, i wanna try that one" said the cutest lips i've ever laid eyes upon. I smiled and took his hands and dragged him to the nearest station. every inch of my skin tingling with the touch of his skin againts mine, friction has never been this good. We rode a jeep and i have never seen somebody get excited riding a jeep before. it was kinda like a boy having his first football game. excitement and anticipation in a grown man's face. it was so adorable and all the time his hand is on my hand. squeezing and playing with it. then he looked at me with those expressive brown eyes. gratitude, longing and something else are emanating out.

After the jeepney ride, he offered to take me to dinner for my troubles, He ordered Penne Con Broccoli and grilled tuna belly with pinot blanc. i simply ordered chicken. We talked during dinner and i found out that he is here for a cosmetic conference. He said that the oriental body composition of asians might not be suitable to the cosmetic procedure intended for the western populace. We talked like there was no tomorrow and i suddenly find myself inside his hotel room.

Wine seemed to overflow and the feeling of this man near me, his hands on my hips as we sway to a sweet beat of a slow background music. I can hear his breathin, i can feel his heartbeat. it's racing while he stroke my back. I feel numb while he caress my skin. then he whispered to my ear with the most soothing voice."relax darling, your body is too tense" i looked at him, our eyes intertwined, he can see i was scared but God those eyes, those longing eyes and those inviting lips. I couldnt resist my self, he pulled me closer, kissed me so gently. he's lips so soft and so powerful, his hands on my back, supportin me coz my legs and knees are failing me, His passionate kisses full of longing, full of emotions, then his hands started to wander, touching ang feeling every part of my silky body. he slowly undress me as i undress him. he picked me up and laid me on his bed. He stared for a moment, savoring the image of me on his bed. he came close and started kissing me, touching and caressing me. his lips wandered and found themselves on my breasts. As he move, i can feel my spirit soaring. it was so intense. i couldnt take it anymore so i begged him. he position himself on top of me. slowly stroking me with his manhood. i asked him to be gentle coz i think its too big for me to take in. he gently pressed himself on me. slowly sliding it in. It was warm. no i think it was hot. i thought he'd burn me. then rushed the pain as he tried to put it in. i felt my body would rip. I was so stretched. it was searing hot and it was painful. i asked him to pull it out. he just caressed me with kisses and reassured me that its ok. he asked me to relax. and god those eyes, those eyes made me forget about the pain. He was caressing me and i was responding when he thrusted it all in. i was shocked coz i thought he had it all in the first time, i was wrong.

He was moving inside me. we were moving to a cosmic dance that only the two of us hear. i finally understand the theory of relativity. This man on top of me, moving, sliding and me taking it all in. i wanted to scream but only breaths and moans are heard from me. my mind spinning, my body moving, my spirit soarin to the heavens. i felt like exploding, i can sense my body becoming tense, my heart racing twice the rate when we started. he is moving fast, i can feel his body stiffining, faster and faster. it was crazy. i was crazy. then i felt him. our bodies lock. a bind of fluid connected our body together. We were one of the same. and then heaven was achieved. heaven was here.

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"Nicole?" called my mother

"Mom?"

"come here baby, stop crying,"

 "i miss him mother, i want him back! why hasnt he contacted me?"

"if he's meant for you, he'll come back for you"

"mommy,'

"oh baby, i dont have the answers, stop crying now pls. it breaks my heart"

"mom, i love him."

"i know, but it's been months now, you have to pull yourself together"

"oh christopher, i miss you!"

Finally! after procrastinating for 7 months, Leoric and i went to providence! This videoke plan has been long overdue and even if i only had 5 hrs of sleep from talking with a great arizona guy (???) i forced myself out of the bed and went to the office and dragged him outta there.

Its my first time at providence and being with my good friend made the experience more fun and worthwhile. Lr had the most interesting singing voice (10 thousands decibels to be exact, hahaha) while i preferred the more sweet sounding songs.

NO, we're not drunk! hahaha. it was an alcohol free activity. Just imagine what we would be like if we had booze, the building would collapse. hahaha

(a belter and an amplifier singing together could break the gibraltar rock)

i hope respect for one another will remain after this crazy fiasco.

The following pictures were taken from the shaky hand's of LR   

I really had a blast and Lr has been very accomodating and he took care of me all the way and i greatly appreciate his generousity (he paid for everything, affluent kid? hahaha) and because he paid for it im compelled to take him out next time but its ok coz i always have the greatest time when he's around.

This has been a well deserved break from a stressful work and sharing this moment with this great person has been the most meaningful event in my life.

I'd like to thank Leoric for making this one possible. You have been very supportive and generous in helping me out and the thing i like the most, you have always been emotionally present and you never fail to cheer me up when bouts of doubt and depression get the better of me. So again thank you for being the best friend that i girl like me can have. and i'd like to apologize about the dvd's. hahaha. (he had dvds for me and i left them in providence so we had to go back for them that made him sweat like a pig (sorry for my carelessness) dont worry you still smell wonderful.

Now more that ever i believe that you'd make a wonderful bf, hahaha.

lov yah!

"It's usual for a woman who never really had a stablished father figure to demand attention and to constantly ask for validation that someone loves her" DR. Stanley Katz Ph.D.

I have always known about this and no matter how i tried to convince and accept this empty hole in my past. No matter how i try to surpass this issue, i still revert back to the old needy helpless little me. This whole issue of not being liked takes a toll on all other relationships that i have. i have a hard time trusting and believing other genuine affections since what i long for is the primal care that i missed from my dad.

My fondest memory of him when i was still a little girl (HUH???) was when he would drive me to school, when he has dunkin donuts pasalabong for me and my big brother, when we would go the breakwaters of luneta to eat litson manok every other saturday nights, when we dine out and aristocrat will be the place. when we would watch a movie in centerpoint, (rocketeer was the last movie i saw with my dad), when i woke my mom up in the middle of the night coz i wanna see my daddy, i had ear infection then and i wanted to eat at jollybee's but they were all closed so we went to aristocrat instead and that's when we realized it was my birthday.

I remember every weekend we would to swimming. Every afternoon, he would take us around our place on our bike. every sunday we are at CCP or luneta. My first boat ride was with him in manila bay and i said i saw a mermaid and he laughed and agreed with me. I remember him holding my hands when we walk or stroll even just to buy bread in the bakery. I love my dad and i know he loves me, its just that it has never been a practice in our family to be mushy and affectionate.

writing this makes me cry coz all my life he was there, but i just couldnt be with him. we missed a lot of years and its hard to start a new. i want him to hold my hand, hold me when im scared, pick me up and throw me in the air when i did something great. and i just wanna lean on him and forget about the time and worries of the future.

"i had my dad all my life. but i didnt had him growing up!"  

Approved ang leave ko for 2 days kaya sunod ako agad sa mga friends sa puerta, Malas lang kc ang tagal nung mga nasakyan ko, 6 am ako umalis sa bahay,nsa lipa palang ako nang nagtxt si choleng na magsnorkling sila pero kung gus2 ko daw antayin na nila ako, so buti nlang hindi nila ako inantay kc kung nagkataon eh hapon na kami makakapagsnorkling. 9:40 ako dumating batangas port. 10 am daw ang alis ng M.B BRIAN pero 11 na nagsimula ang aming paglayag. 1pm nsa white beach nako. Sa whole duration ng paglalakbay wala akong kinain kaya pagdating lamon kami agad. at habang inaantay ang food, camwhoring!

    

 

after magpakabusog, punta agad sa room, siempre sila para mag freshen up at ako, diretso agad sa favorite activity ko sa puerta.

 

burlog, hehehe seksi kong matulog noh?  

hehehe, siempre hindi yun totoo dahil ganito ako kaseksi matulog>> bwahahaha

Pagkagising, siempre camwhoring parin. at ang theme? after-sex-look!   

at ang pinakaseksi sa lahat

oh diba pra lang kabayo?? choleng kc!

Anyway nagayos na kaming lahat kaya piqtur piqtur na pinagkaabalahan namin.  

ay sori! si kathy pala hindi pa nakaayos, hahahaha (kmusta nman ang turban natin?)   

tara!, kunan natin ang dingding ng kwarto. ehehe

ang ebulosyon ng babae>>> hahaha   

after mag piqturan, naisipan namin na magbanana boat, at dito ko napatunayan ko na meron akong powers ng premonitions, dahil nung nahulog na silang lahat sa banana boat eh matagal na akong nalaglag, (excited! grabeh parang 10 feet yung layo ko sa kanila at siempre para hindi mapahiya ng konti. freestyle palapit sa kanila) at hindi ko na rin  isheshare sa inyo na hirap na hirap makaakyat si choleng sa banana boat, na muntik na rin malaglag yung tumutulong sa kanya sa pagahon at kaylangan pang tulungan ni kuya richie para lang maisakay si choleng ulit. hehehe hindi kona yun isasali sa entry na toh.

after magbanana boat konting babad lang kc gabi na tapos banlaw na ulit para lumamon. habang naliligo silang lahat eto ang pinagkakaabalahan ko,

   

nagpunta kami sa NIKITA dahil masarap food dun at kung magserve sila eh parang pang contruction worker so talagang love ko d2. ang problema lang subrang tagal bago dumating yun food tpos nagbrownout pa at mejo sira ang generator nila so kumain kmi sa dilim.

  

 

 

    

  

 

  

anyway enjoy naman kahit papano, kaya lang wala akong nakilalang porn star kakainis!

I tried to be friends with all my 3 exes and i was pretty successful at that. however, even if we are friends, somethings can never be the same compared when we were in the relationship. I always demand little things and expect them to be given to me. I still think that since we had history together all my whims will be tolerated. Now i realized im wrong. When a man has moved on, he really moves on and forget everything in his past. unlike me who hangs on to the past and tries to drag it in the present.

I asked my ex why he has'nt contacted me for a week (I think i didnt ask him, it was more of i nagged him). he said he was just so busy coz he's supervisor is picking up on him. and so i went on my elaborate drama that i feel im not appreciated shit! he apologized and promised to make it up to me. af course being the psycho that i am, i didnt buy that. He said he has nothin more to say than sorry and if i cant forgive him then he cant do anything about it.

When we were still together, He wouldnt stop untill i am smiling but now, its like "i apologized! take it or leave it." i know im not in any position to demand but what can i say. im a psychotic bitch ex gf. so we said goodbye, he went to work and im here in front of the computer babbling about this! how pathetic can i get! 

I know even before i met you,

i have this feeling of emptiness.

I hole left from a miserable life.

You said you can never fill it,

only acceptance and forgiveness can.

You were there for me to make the pain bearable.

You made me forget about it.

NOw its dented, And you cant be here for me.

YOU CAN NEVER BE HERE FOR ME!

Naginuman kami sa bahay, (sana hindi ako hulihin dahil sa liquor ban) konting kain, videoke, mani at apat na RED HORSE GRANDE ang kapiling namin habang napaguusapan ang office politics and past experiences. PICS>>>

DON, baket??

SEKSI talaga ni alaine.

wasted?

Alaine, wag mo mashadong ipahalata na mejo me tama kana!

AYan, prettyness!

A friend from the office passed away and to give our respects and condolences to the family, We decided to grace their house in BULACAN. A jeepney, mrt and FX ride later and we found ourselves in SM MARILAO. Hungry and a little wet from the rain, We decided to eat first before getting ourselves on another jeepney ride to the famous HONDA landmark! This was supposed to be a wake visit but because of the jolly, childish nature of all persons who went. It seemed more of a teambuilding that a mournfull friends!

Dahil ang tagal ng food, piqtur muna ako, kala mo hindi gutom?

CHOLENG? Sino yang nsa likod mo? choleng rin yata pangalang nian?

Si kuya sa gutom, Wa na paki sa piqtur, buti pa si lenn. pose kung pose

Ems anu ba hinahanp mo pa jan? At ikaw kathy bkit nman CALAMANSI lang kakainin mo? no wonder payat ka

Binabawi ko na yung calamansi comment ko, Grabeh ka kathy,

Mga pa cute! siempre ako rin

Pagdating namin sa Honda, wag daw tatawid hehehe, at ang sabi eh nsa tapat daw sila ng bakery. Pag tingin namin sa kanan,merong tatlo, pagtingin sa kaliwa, meron dalawa. so lakad kami ng konti pero mali pala ang direkson so balik kmi. Meron daw banner pero mas mukhang tarpulin, Pasok kami ni choleng, "dito po da kina paolo?" tanong ni choleng sa lalakeng kahawig na kahawig ni pampig. Pagpasok! nakabungad na si pampig so no choice kundi pakatitigan sha. (at dito na naiyak si ems, iyakin talaga) Tsika galore, rapport ng konti at pagkatapos napagusapan ang mga memories, BIGLANG NAMATAY ANG ILAW! parang scenario sa mga beauty pageants na gustong gustong pinapanood ni pampig! Hindi na rin kami mashadong nagtagal kc merong taga manila, makati, taguig at laguna. Umarkila na kmi (actually si doc) ng Fx para hindi na kami magantay ng matagal. at siempre para maimmortalize ang pag MMRT ko!

At totoong stressfull, kc mejo malayo at umulan pa (evidence)

It was fun kahit nakakapagod! Its a sacrifice para sa isang kaibigan. kaya paalam TONTON, nawa'y maging panatag ka sa iyong paglalakbay! "WORLD PEACE!"

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Nais kong pasalamatan ang mga sumusunod:

Choleng, Kathy, Ems, kuya Richie, Lenn, doc> its was such a pleasurable moment to be with you guys! at salamat kay kuya at kay lenn sa paghatid sakin sa sakayan ng jeep! i feel such a damsel choze!

Ampig Family> I mourn with ur lose. I pray for all of you and salamat sa pagtanggap samin sa inyong tahanan.

Sa  dalawang driver ng fx> nakakatuwa ka kuya,

Sa driver ng jeep> Kahit lahat ng pasahero ay nasigawan mo dahil sa init ng ulo mo, hindi moko sinali, hehehe

Restday ko tuwing tuesday and wednesday. Maganda sana to kc meron akong dalawang araw para magasikaso ng kung ano ano katulad ng pagkuha ng PASSPORT, Pagkuha ng COC at pagpapa SSS ID. Tuesday, Dapat pupunta ako ng sanpedro para ipaayos ang pasta ko na natanggal, eh umulan so tinamad ako. kaya dito nalang sana ako sa malapit saming dentist, kaya lang bawal daw yun, dapat daw ibalik ko dun sa gumawa nung una kong pasta. in short walang nangyari, Kinabukasan. nagplano ako na pumunta ng dentist, pumunta sa bangko at bumuli ng shoes. 2:00 pm ang appointment ko sa dentist. 2:30 ako dumating 3:45 ako natapos. Pumunta ako ng main office para magpapalit ng ID. kaya lang nabago ako ng isip kc PhP 150 salary deduction yun (kuripot). Buti nalang naisipan ko na dumaan muna sa 3rd floor. kc nakita ko dun si feugene, kaya nagpasama ako sa bangko. tapos sha rin pla pupunta ng meralco para magbayad. Lucky charm ko ang gago dahil naapproved ako kaya lang last night daw naimplement ang Php 2000 initial deposit. (putcha, dati 1000 lang)

Anyway, naawa ako kay feugene kc na stranded sha sa waiting shade kc umuulan nung umalis sha ng bangko. di tuloy sha nakapagbayad ng meralco, kaya ayun, kumain nalang muna kami sa KFC habang nagpapatila ng ulan, Ang sweet ng loko kc binigay sakin ang sweater nia para hindi ako mabasa ng ulan tsaka pinagbuksan nia ako ng pinto. (ang babaw!) Nagtaxi na kmi pauwi dahil nga inaantok nako. ANg pokpok na lalake pagpasok ng taxi sabi sa pinamakamalapit daw na motel. (ewan ko ba hiyang hiya ako kahit na biro lang yun, nangyari narin yan nung nagtaxi kami ni mandy, hummmmp! sana lang totoo na sa motel nila ako dadalhin) anyway being the camwhore that i am,

 

 

 

Kararating lang ng bessy ko from bahrain at sakto talaga kc fiesta sa kanila, maliban sa kantahan at kainan meron pang ganitong churva, (opo palocebo in the middle of the road in the metropolis)

Anyway, dahil matagl tagal na rin kaming hindi nagkikita ni bessy, siempre camwhoring sa rooftop ang drama.

oo na cge na nga pangit nako, eto maganda promise

Nung gabi na, sinundo namin si Kazia sa edsa shangrila, she's a polish lady na kaflat mate ng aking bessy.

d2 kasam nila si marianne, highschool classmate namin ni bezz,

ayun, nung una ayoko sana makipagusap kay kazia kc nga english spokening dollar ang bruha, kung lalake pa sana sha kahit nosebleed nako eh ok lang kc kasunod noon eh genital bleed, (YUCKEI) pero naisip ko na rin na maraming contact na lalake toh, so chika galore na kmi para ikalat nia ako sa mga friends nia, hehehe. so para mas maging close, inofferan ko sha ng food, mali yata ang ginagwa ko kc parang di nia mashadong nagustuhan

hindi yata appetizing ang pagkain na toh, sabagay mukhang uod, hehehe, macapuno dessert po yan!

so para makapagbonding eh eto nlang ginawa nmin

actually mas eto yun

to make the story short, close na kmi. at eto ang magandang si kazia

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dahil mejo late na kmi nakauwi, mejo muntik narin akong malate pagpasok. nagaabang ako ng taxi ng may pumarang tricycle sa harap ko, siempre senyas ako na hindi ako sasakay. sabay silip tong si feugene, so sa pagkabigla ko.Napatilio ako na bumaba na sha dun at sumabay na sha sakin sa taxi. chika ng konti tpos saktong naglolotion ako ng kamay ng mapasandal ako sa siko nia at natusok ako (as in literally) so pinunasan ko rin ng lotion ang siko nia, aba nman, biglang naglitanya na ang arte ko raw tpos dami nman girls na hindi nagrereklamo sa siko nia, sabay himas ng balat ko, buti nlang malambot ako nun, pero alam nia kc kung ano yung magaspang sakin (maliban sa mukha) so hinawakan nia yung kamay ko. (i used to hold his hands kc malambot at malaki palad nia ) at inasar nako the whole time na magkasama kami sa taxi.

 

MALEPIG1: Hi, musta na tagal na natin di nakakapagusap ah?

GODDESS: Buti nman, Bakit mo nman naisipan na kausapin ako ulit???

MALEPIG1: Wala lang, miss na kc kita eh. So makikipagkita kna ba sakin?

GODDESS: No way!

MALEPIG1: Bakit nman, away mo ba akong makasama?

GODDESS: ayoko, ilang beses ko ba sasabihin sayo na ayoko ko nga.

MALEPIG1: Aba, maraming nagkakandarapa na makasama ako noh?

GODDESS: Eh di sila kulitin mo?

MALEPIG1: ayoko sa kanila eh, tsaka anu ba ayaw mo sakin? gwapo nman ako tsaka wag kang magalala, libre na lang to! lib*g talaga ako eh.

GODDESS: Pwede ba, wag mo nakong kulitin.

MALEPIG1: ayaw mo pa? mageenjoy ka naman sakin tpos hindi mo pa kaylangang magbayad.

(HAYUP! kahit yumaman kapa sa pagkabit sa mga matrona at bakla at maafford mo ang proper oral hygiene at paliligo. hinding hindi kita papatulan dahil ako tao, ikaw fungi!)

eto pa ang isa>>>

MALEPIG2: Hi, gud am

GODDESS: gud am, why?

MALEPIG2: wala lang nangangamusta lang. online kaba ngayon?

GODDESS: hindi, bakit?

MALEPIG2: online ka naman oh, paki buksan friendster ko. may papaedit lang ako sayo

GODDESS: kapal nman ng mukha mo, kung wala kang pangonline wag kang naguutos sa iba, tsaka bkit close ba tayo?

MALEPIG2: eto nman, init na nman ng ulo, buti nga tinext kita, kc miss na kita eh. nakita ko nga pla yung bago mong pic. ang ganda mo dun.

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MALEPIG2: oh bakit hindi kana nagreply? nga pla, paloadan mo nman ako oh, kahit 60 lang, alam mo nman number ko diba?

GODDESS: ang kapal talaga ng mukha mo! pede ba kung wala kang pera, wag kang magcellphone!

"alam ko dahil sa stereotype eto pero pede ba, mashado ako maganda para tratuhin niong matrona o desperada"

Kakaloka ang lunes ko. 7am tumawag si nap tungkol sa impending resignation nia (namin pala). tpos tawag ako sa office para humingi ng advice. (tnx choleng, dulva, fidel.) Tapos naisipan ni nap and emy na magpapiqtur. dito ksama si rose.

Tpos ang iyaking si emy, nanghaharass ng kiss.

After makipagharutan sa office, naisipan namin ni nap na magpacleaning ng teeth and magpapasta sa patient's first glorietta kaya lang by appointment daw sila. so ikot-ikot muna kami, tawag sa dental network(na walang sumasagot) tapos naisipan nalang namin na dumiretso sa MEDICAL PLAZA. Nasa pila kami ng maxicare office nang tinamaan ako ng lintek at nagtanong nalang ako sa guard, Hindi na pla namin kaylangan pumila pa dun, pede na daw dumiretso sa dentist. So punta kami sa clinic sa baba, chineck ang record namin, SIEMPRE pareho kaming virgin ni nap so pedeng magpacleaning at pasta, 3 surfaces ang nagamit namin pareho. Balak sana namin na magpunta pa sa ROB PLACE MANILA pero dahil sa antok hindi nlang kami tumuloy. Nasa bahay nako ng nagtext tong si ivy at doc na magkita na daw kami sa friday's ng 6 pm (bday ni duday, hehehe). So palit lang ng damit tapos larga na ulit. kakainis kc friday's pa kami pupunta samantalang jollibee ang at mcdo lang ang alam ko sa glorietta (im sure iikot na nman mata ni ivy). NAgkasalubong kami ni doc sa baba at muntik nakong malaglag sa hagdan dahil buzy akong kinikilala yung guy na nakatingin samin ni doc, Buti nlang hindi ko crush si marc nelson dahil pag nagkataon eh nasalubsob ako sa sahig. Pero siempre si doc binalikan pa ang marc para magpacute, hindi ko na alam kung ano nanyari dahil iniwan ko na sila. Pasok kami friday's (oo first time ko dun, virgin na virgin na nman ako) Kain kami ng backribs(na kinapagod ko lang, buti nalang masarap yung JUFRAN, hehehe) after pigging out, diretso nako sa bahay dahil gus2 kong maligo ulit bago kami magkita ni kenselle pero mejo traffic so pagpalit lang ako ng heels to flat ang nagawa ko. (5'5 ako, 5'6 si kenselle so hindi pede mag heels)

Gusto ko chubbyness pero wala akong magagawa dahil talagang pinanganak siang payat. Anyway pagkita namin, sabi nia gutom na gutom sha kaya gus2 niang kumain, so inasar ko sha na nahalata nman sa katawan nia na gutom sha eh (hehehe payat kc) Ang lakas kong mangasar pero nung ako na inaasar nia napikon talaga ako. (kc naman, tagal nmin nagkita tpos sasabihin nia bakit ako maraming pimple, bkit ko hinayaang pumangit ako? pakshet) mainit na ang ulo ko tapos ang loko tinagalan pa ang magkain eh ubos na yung sundae cone na kinakain ko so lalo akong naiinis. Ang ang manhind na lalake, naglambing pa sakin na ibili ko daw sha ng isang liver aid. (isa??? anong mangyayari sa isa?? so 10 ang binili ko)

 Ewan pero nabwubwuset talaga ako sa kanya kagabi tapos humiram pa sakin ng P20 (wala daw sha barya) dahil magloload sha ng alltext. (wala shang celphone, pero dala nia yung CP ng gf nia< selos ako khit alam ko na walang karapatan) Kaya si doc tuloy ang kinulit ko kagabi dahil sa bwuset ko. Tpos ang gago, nagseselos sa katxt ko,(kung alam lang nia, hindi dapat pagselosan si doc, heheh)

Pagpunta namin sa cowboy grill merong eksena, sa inis ko, harass kong binuksan yung pinto ng taxi, natamaan ko yata yung nakapark na van. kaya hinila nako agad ni kenselle sa loob, (wala nmang scratch eh, promise). Dun sa loob nahimasmasan nako dahil kinausap nako ni kenselle ng masinsinan, pansin nia kc na nakasimangot ako the whole time. siempre ang manhid na lalake,hindi alam kung bakit ako nagmamaktol, wala daw shang matandaan na ginawa nia. (Mga lalake talaga sobrang inconsiderate. puta!) anyway, hindi ko rin naipaliwanag ng maayos ang dahilan kaya sabi nia tigilan ko na daw ang pagdradrama. Dahil im such a mellow hearted person nadaan ako sa paglalambing  ng loko, (kiss sa kamay, holding hands, hawi ng buhok ko, hapit sa bewang, himas sa braso) letse ang dali ko talagang bumigay hehehe. anyway eto na ang itsura ng lalakeng kasama ko, wag na kayong magcomment pls, masasaktan ako.

(eto na ang payat na si kenselle at ang whale na diosa)

Marami pang eksena ang nangyari pero nagpromise ako na hindi ko sila iseshare eh, so kayo nlang bahala nagisip kung ano na nanyari after. kung kilala nio talaga ako, alam nio na yun! hehehe. (ang pangit noh?)