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Sunday, September 28, 2008

IS IT OVER?

IS IT OVER BY JAYA.

 I am sorry i havent been around lately, Things got messy and i needed time to think things over but my mind was kinda frantic and my thoughts was just all over the place, making it hard to focus on one emotion.

to give you an idea. here are the list of emotions and feelings that my little heart had to hold in:

Happy, sad, angry, hurt, hopeful, fearful, hurt, confused, angry, betrayed, hurt, alone, angry, hopeless, annoyed, hurt, angry, left-out, insignificant. angry, fool. crazy. hurt and un-important. have i mentioned hurt and angry?

Of course , any one cannot have all these stuff at the same time so i needed recluse.

Question is

 am i ready to face the world?

honestly i am not

 or 

i am not sure.

but how can i find out if im here trying to think if i am ready? so

i have to stand up, dust off and look forward.

wish me luck~

 
Thursday, September 4, 2008

Im not Ready to meet new People

Yeah. i am not. I was home minding my own business when this guy started to talk to me. Infairness he is goodlooking.

 

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SEREF: Hi, This is Seref, I saw your profile in faceBook erk erk.com and i decided i want to know you better, BTW, you looked so good. How are you?

CLIOGODDESS: wow thank you. im doin great you?

SEREF: im good now. thanks.

CLIOGODDESS: ok that's nice.

SEREF: im Seref, blah blah blah, you can check my profile. im from turkey.

CLIOGODDESS: wow. we dont have thanksgiving but i love turkey, although i have to say, chicken is still my favorite.

SEREF: Foot in mouth???

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Sorry. alam ko sa ginagawa ko di malayong ma- RUFFA GUTIERREZ ako neto.

 
Wednesday, September 3, 2008

BUrn Up and now im Burning.

2 years and 8 months.

That's how long i have been working. I know its not enough time compared to those who have been working 7 decades but for someone who is no longer happy, One second seems like 7 years.

I feel ingrateful for submitting my immediate resignation without proper notice but i had to do it. 

I feel ingrateful to my company who gave me everything i needed (except comfortable chair and RAISE)

Most Importantly, I feel Ingrateful to my supervisor, Who was nothing but GOOD TO ME.

There were moments where i was delinquent, rebellious even. But still i was praised.

 What i did caused my supervisor lots or trouble, stress, headache and unnecessary work.

I AM SORRY (gloria pahiram)

If i stayed even one more day,

 I WILL BE UNGRATEFUL TO MYSELF.

Who has been, for 2 months begging me to stop and listen.

because very minute at work takes a toll on me

Back in the old days. Stress from work dissipates after 2 mins.

Now it stays for 3 days.

I am sorry,

What i did was irresponsible.

 But you see.

I have bigger responsibility to myself

And you might not understand

but this is how i do things.

People might not agree.

but

ME AND I ARE ON THE SAME PAGE NOW

AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME.

 

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