DEMENTIA: Deterioration of intellectual faculties, such as memory, concentration, and judgment and good example of dementia is Alzheimer's Disease.

I think i have an early onset of dementia because i've been doin things a little bit demented.

Yesterday, i wanted to heat water so i took my kettle, poured in some water and heat it up, and spend the next 40 seconds looking for the lid of the kettle. Granny was laughing so hard she almost peed on the floor because i cant remember where i put it.

This morning, i wanted coffee so i made one, then i went inside my room with the coffee jar, coffee creamer and sugar and not my coffee. this time granny wasnt able to hold it. she laughed so hard she had to change clothes.

also, i had to read a script for my voice coach, (yes im taking singing/voice lessons to be a singer) it says "Good afternoon, You're balance is $30"  and for some unknown reason, i said "Good afternoon, You're balance is THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS" and then my very goodlooking new friend looked at me and asked me if my script was different, i just told him, "well im rich and i feel generous so i gave him more" just to excuse myself from a very embarrassing situation.

I think i have MAD COW DISEASE coz my brain is degenerating.

but then again i look like a monkey so i have to look for another reason.

I was supposed to come in by 9am but the previous night, dad was snoring loudly that i wasnt able to sleep so i decided to leave the house early and since im not a real citizen, the traffic volume overwhelmed me and now i know that hailing a cab is impossible. 8:50 am and i was still 3 blocks away so i called in to say im running a bit late. Woman from recruitment said its ok since i can always get the 11am schedule. (oh boy! have i known, i should have taken the bus instead, hehe) after 20 mins of interview, i passed and was asked to return by 12:30pm for my training schedule. I thought it wouldnt take long so i decided to wait for it and then have lunch. (plus i met this really goodlookin guy so i flirted a bit) 12:30 came and was told that if we wanted, we can start by 3pm. After contemplating and deliberating, we decided to start the same day thinking we still have two hours to prep for the training. Wrong! coz we have to take an english exam that lasted little less than 2 hrs, (sorry stomach.)

 Training is from 3pm to 11pm and since i was officially awake for two days, my brain was frozen and i had to un-learn and re-learn my english. (ok. I can admit this much, im not good at it and i sound like a frog)

Things i learned from my vocal coach: (Yes im trying to learn how to sing)

• The answer to "Do you have any more questions?" should be "NO" or to complete it "No, no more questions". Filipinos are so accustomed in answering "NONE" but if we changed the question into "Do you have fever?" we dont answer NONE i dont have fever but NO i dont have fever. (makes sense)
  
• My Trainer asked me something about my previous work but i answered vaguely for confidential reasons. i said "i cant tell", he said i should have said "i cant say" and since i was brain dead for staying awake for 23 hrs, i didnt know the difference between the two. My good friend SPENCER explained that with TELL> you dont know what's goin on and with SAY> you cannot answer at that time or that you can find out shortly. (smart american boy, i wanna marry him now)
• The correct pronunciation of IRREVOCABLE. if you wanna hear it and click the "speaker icons" on online dictionary.

The reason why im reluctant to learn english is because i miss Trojan. He's an eloquent speaker with the most wonderful and mellow voice  (well he's american so go figure but then again most american are not as good as him) and learning the way he speak makes me miss him more. (i remember him teaching me how to pronounce FONDLE and those good times are what i miss most)

Anyway, i have to buckle down and get right into the dirty work plus i have to update my wardrobe. 

life is really something~

FRIDAY (1o-11-08) CONNECTICUT SUPREME COURT issued a ruling in favor of SAME-SEX MARRIAGE. This makes Connecticut the third state that allows gay couple to have equal access to marriage behind Massachusetts and California.

Choleng once asked "Why clamor for marriage if living together with your partner is not actually challenged, questioned or objected upon?

For some couple, it is the rights and responsibilities of marriage that they need, The benefits of cohabitation and the stability of having someone through thick and thin as the old adage say, but there are already what we call civil unions or domestic partnerships that legally recognize two people who wants to register as a couple so Why still push for marriage?

I think it is simple. RECOGNITION. Of course there are the perks of having married, like social security benefits, health care, conjugal proprietary and the ability to form a family (kids through adoption) but it all boils down to RECOGNITION.

We strive to work hard, to study hard, to play hard or to fight hard not only because we wanna win but also to be recognized and acknowledged and most importantly we wanna be accepted. If we had to go through all the break-ups and the bad dates just to find that one special person that we wanna be with for the rest of our lives, Wouldnt we want other people to recognize the better half of who we are?

Marriage celebrates the love of two person, it is hard work but it is still a celebration and if righteous groups will not recognize all the struggles of finding someone to share life with, then those people should have their marriage re-examined and they might as well tell us not to be human since it is a fundamental need for anyone to connect with someone.

 It is the right of anyone to find love and if they choose to celebrate this love in marriage then no one can and no one should deny that right and if we are really a society of intelligence and sensibility, then we shouldnt have a hard time recognizing that.

On a personal note, When divorce rates are high and everyone gets separated, wouldnt it be nice and inspirational if gay couples can also prove that LOVE is still worth it?

Napag-usapan namin ni CHOLENG ang mga eksena sa tindahan. of cors, laging masasama ang "pabili po ng colgate, yung close up" at ang walang kamatayang "isa nga pong bote ng Owel".

pero me additonal si choleng sa listahan ng mga eksena sa  tindahan:

Customer: pabili po ng napkin.

tatay nia: anung size?

eto pa>

Customer: pabili po ng BEN BRAN

Tindero: anu yun?

Customer: yung pung gatas.

pero hindi papahuli ang lola ko:

Customer: pabili po ng katol. yun pong merong GRANDSTAND.

SAN KAPA?

i saw you lookin at me, you were there standing, staring straight to my face. You knew that i was there trying to figure out what you want and what you will do.

I was there but you violated me. you took advantage of my trust.

i should have killed you but i said to myself, you dont deserve a punishment because you havent done ME anything wrong.

i gave you mercy but you FOOLED ME~

how dare you play with my innocence and JUST USE ME~

you dont deserve to LIVE.

ALL of your kind is dirty, manipulative low lives that cause pain to people like me.

I HATE YOU~

i didnt hate your kind before but what you did to me

made me HATE YOU.

You used my kindness

and took advantage of me.

I HATE YOU>

YOU AND YOUR KIND DOESNT DESERVE MY SYMPATHY.

i was there eating,  then you came, staring at me but after 3 seconds you violated me and stole from me.

I hate you. 

 rooeelll!!, yang mga alaga mo. peste~

 After a break up, Some if not most tries to look for a rebound guy or girl. This is not admirable since this can not be considered as a mature way of coping with a lost love but it feels great as hell to have someone to fallback to. I can justify the rebound relationship if both people involved knows the real score and the real story behind the "FALLBACK Relationship".

But the number one rule on the rebound relationship is "NEVER FALL" for the girl or the guy otherwise be ready for a whole lot of disappointments and hurt, coz this kind of pseudo-relationship cannot provide the demands of a real relationship.

 but i did it again.

i broke the rule.

now two of my rebound guys are not available.

oh well, 

 landi ko kc.

kaylangan dalawa pa~

 hehehe

im so pretty~

I was broken hearted and this time it really hurt. Specially when you thought it was real and you thought you did everything just to make sure that things are going exactly according to your plan. But relationships hardly fall into plan since it involves someone else and most of the time, you have no idea what's goin on inside your partner's head.

After learning that my fairytale romance had ended. i denied it, i tried to say to myself its not over and dearly clung to the hope that it's just a bump on the road so no reason to drop it. I was angry but i tried to downplay it.

I struggled to survive and i wanna believe its not over, but it is over. no more denying, no more sugar-coating and no more rationalizing and finally, after admitting the real situation, Pain, hurt, anger and sorrow became bearable. Although im not yet 100% ok, i can say that im ready to move on, of course there are still moments when he crossess my mind and i just stop. Moments where i dont wanna see his picture coz i miss him and it makes me sad to realize what i lost coz i indeed lose a wonderful man that i wanted to be mine.

I loved you, When i met you, i said to myself "This woman could be the right woman for me. Everything i wanted in a woman and you have it". I am truly happy when i am with you and everyday i pray to the god, "please let her be the one for me". i prayed everyday but this is the kind of prayer that god cannot answer. I am sorry! ~ALLY MCBEAL

 This is the line from a man who had to let go of a woman he loves simply because he knows she is not the right woman and this made me realize, its over. i know he loved me and he tried very hard to fight for me but he knew the truth. I know people would say he didnt really loved me but for some strange reason i know he did and his mistake doesnt negate the fact that he did.

Its over between us

but it doesnt mean he loved me less.

it only means he didnt love me enough.