I WONT EAT FOR 2 WEEKS

When i received my salary, everyone pushed me to have my cellphone repaired coz it's been weeks since it decided to show blank screen only. So i went and had it repaired for a freaking 1,500 shillings and that is not brand new LCD screens and mind you the place where i had it repaired boasts of a 24 hrs warranty. so what the fuck am i to do after 24 hrs? stare at the moon and ask for rain? So much to my determination to stay with my old phone i had to trade it in to a newer phone. When choosing a new phone im not much of a techno savy and feature junkie so i leave it all to my intuitions. (NAKS~ CLAIRVOYANT EK_EK.) I look at different phones and let it talk to me. One got my attention and right then and there i said IT'S THE ONE! hehehe. The problem is ITS A WHOPPING 12,000 SHILLINGS~ and i only have around 5,000 left. Luckily im such a charmer that the owner allowed me to trade my old phone with a great discount but i had to head home first to or else i'll be walking home with a new phone but without anything left for transpo.

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and here's my first pic using my N6280

 

DONT PLAY THAT SONG

I so love this song originally sung by the icomparable aretha franklin but since mariah is my number artist so here is her version. This was recorded during mg 31st BIRTHDAY. hehehe.

Don't play that song for me
'Cuz it brings back memories
Old days that I once knew
The days that I spent with you
Oh no! Don't let them play it
It fills my heart with pain
Please stop it right away
'Cuz I remember just what he said,
He said, "Darling" and I know that he lied
You know that you lied, you know that you lied
Lied, you lied (to me)

Hey mister don't play it no more. Don't play it no more
I can't stand it. Don't play it no more
No more, no more
I remember on our first date,
He kissed me and he walked away
I was only seventeen, I never dreamed he'd be so mean
He told me, "Darling, I love you". Baby, baby, you lied
You, you lied you know that you lied, lied lied
Oh darling, you know that you lied, yeah
You know I know you lied. Darling, you lied
You lied, you lied. You're all that I need
You lied. Oh, you lied.
Hey baby don't play it no more, don't do it
Don't play it no more, no more
I can't stand it no more
OOh hey! Don't play it no more

 

I'm angry at my mom.

Last night my dad told my mom that she should let me live my own life, at least let me do things my own. let me be independent and decide for myself. What a change of event, just last month ago my dad doesnt want me to leave the comforts of home and relocate to baguio. (he's prayers had been answered since there will be no such relocation.) Now its my mom who doesnt want me to strech my wings and be on my own. and thinking i would'nt be away from them, i was just asking for a little autonomy. But no, my mom would have that, She just wants me to be under her always. so she can control me and so that she wont be left all alone in this world. CRAP~ im such in a hate mode right now. i cant think straight. I never saw that my mom is so manipulative just to keep me as her  minion. Im just not in the mood right now to think straight.

 

AM I SCARY?

 

Am i this scary? I ask coz there is this one person that i really find so stunningly cute, so being the flirtatious hag that i am, i sent him a message telling him how i admire his work and that i wish that we become friends. I never receive any reply on that bold move that i did and worse he suddenly decided to get married, at least that's what his new profile says, So am i that scary for men to suddenly decide to emigrate to timbuktu just to get away from me?

 

SURVEY THAT MADE ME CRY

11 deep questions that will really
tell you something about me. Not
stupid questions like "what is your
favorite lip gloss?"
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1. What is more difficult for you,
looking into someones eyes when you
are telling someone how you feel, or
looking into someones eyes when they
are telling you how they feel?

Answer: Looking into someones eyes when you're telling them how you feel, It takes a lot for me to do that, and most often that not, i do not express myself and end up just shutting up.

2. Think of the last time you were
REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?

Answer: Just this morning with my mom, its something worth another blog entry.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu
to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire
in the back of the plane. You have
enough time to make ONE phone call.
Who would you call?

Answer: my dad, to tell him that i appreciate all the things he did.

4. You are at the doctor's office and
he has just informed you that you are
going to die

(1) Would you tell anyone/everyone
you are going to die?

Answer:  im gonna tell everyone, not to receive pitty but to receive understanding.

(2) What would you do with your
remaining days?

Answer: thank everyone i met in my life.


(3) Would you be afraid?

Answer: perhaps but mostly no. atleast i was given the chance to make right what i did wrong

5. You can have one of the following
two things: trust/love. Which do you
choose?

Answer: Love, im hopeless romantic. i cant help it

6. You are walking down the street on
your way to work. There is a dog
drowning in the canal on the side of
the street. Your boss has told you if
you are late even once more, you are
fired. Do you save the dog?

ANSWER: tell someone about the dog and let them help it

7. You are unfaithful to your
spouse/significant other. Do you tell
him/her? Why or Why not?

Answer:yes i would, he deserves to know. and i have to consiquences of my indescretion

8. Your best friend confesses that
he/she has feelings for you more than
just friendship. He/she is falling in
love with you. What do you do/say

ANSWER: i dont mind, so long as he is a guy.

9. Think of the last person who you
know that died. You have the chance
to give them 1 hour of life back, but
you have to give one year of your
life. do you do it?

ANSWER: i would, but i dont anyone that special to give that privilage with.

10. Are you the kind of friend that
you would want to have as a friend?

ANSWER: yes. im such a good friend, too good for my own good.

11. Is love = s3x?

Answer: it should, but sex isnt always equal love. i dunno, im new at this stuff. hehehe

 

NEVER AGAIN WILL YOU USE ME!

 

You said i was not strong enough, You said even if i try to leave you and block you from my life, you would still find yourself back to me no matter how hard i resist you. You said i will never be happy without you. You said that only you could give me what you have given me. and i admit i left you before but i went back to your clutches for comfort. 

 You kept me company, You understand me when i was lonely and when i needed space. You were there when i was so confused and hurting. I thought you're the only friend that would stick with me through thick and thin. But slowly, you're taking my life away from me, You were feeding from my own body. So i say no more. NEVER WILL I LET YOU MANIPULATE ME. NEVER AGAIN WILL I LET YOU CONTROL ME~ I am the only who has rights to my body. AND you are just a piece of crap that has nothing to offer me.

 

RUSH HOUR

 

Pahingal akong dumating sa sakayan ng jeep dahil yung tricycle na nasakyan ko eh naisipang ibaba ako dun sa mas malayong kanto para daw mapagod ako sa paglalakad. Pagdating ko tatlong tao palang ang nagaantay para sumakay ng jeep. Lovers at isang lalake na malaki ang tiyan. So dun ako sa may WAITING SHADE pumesto para pag merong dumaang jeep eh ako yung unang makakasakay. Nakalipas ang ang ilang minuto siyam na pala kaming nagaantay ng jeep pero wala paring jeep na dumadaan. Ang siste pa, napanis kana nga kakahintay eh aagawan kapa ng jeep, naburaot talaga ako nung meron ng jeep na  dumaan at yung mga hindi pa nakakapunta ng WAITING SHADE ang nakasakay agad so pagdating sakin eh puno na. Naisip ko nalang tuloy na dito talaga sa pilipinas, minsan minsan lang sipagin ang mga tao na magkaron ng disiplina. At pag RUSH HOUR talaga eh kaylangan kalimutan ang mga tamang sakayan at babaan dahil aabutin ka ng pagdebut ni Sharlene San Pedro bago ka makasakay. Pero teka ngayon ko naaalala, pano magkakaron ng RUSH HOUR sa pagpasok ko eh 5:30 AM yun?

 

I wish i know what you're going through?

 

I saw your profile and i noticed that you have updated it. So much for the happy profile i knew. Now all i can sense is sadness and uncertainty. although a glimmer of hope and freedom can be seen on the things you wrote, i cant help but think that something happened and that you went or still going through something difficult. You may show off a happy and contented facade but your face, your eyes and your smiles has nothing.

You may not have the feel of telling me what's wrong. You may not have the need to let me know what's going on. I just wish i knew so that i know better how to deal with you.

 

E.O.P (English Only Policy)

Siempre maraming mga eksena sa OFFICE:

SCENE 1: 

Customer: So i need to have a credit for this?

 Agent: KORAK!

SCENE 2:

Customer: When can the installation happen?

Agent: We can schedule you after we have card the charge.

SCENE 3:

After putting the customer on hold  for 1 min.

Agent: Congratulations for patiently waiting sir!

SCENE 4:

Agent: Now sir, You will hear two short BEPS.

SCENE 5:

Agent: Sir, Do you have a CREYDIT card or a DEYBIT card?

 

Ewan, naloloka nako dito sa mga taong english ng english.

 

The one that got away~

In our lives people come and go, Some would even leave a mark on our lives but there are those who would leave us nothin but longing or empitiness. I'm dedicating this entry to those who swept me off my feet and left as soon as they came. I still remember the first day i saw you. I was smitten by your eyes and your lips. Although i had to admit that your charm got me, i tried so hard to resist my emotions since i was in an emotional uncertainty back then. I even tried to ignore you and be casual in your presence but you had your way into me. We started to know one another and suddenlly i realized you're becomming more that my usual listening buddy.  You captured my enamored heart and i feel deep into your presence. I started dreaming about us and eventhough im uneasy specially for your sake whenever people would talk about us being like a couple but deep in my heart, sparks are flying just thinking of that possibility. You never fail to make me smile and cheer me up. Your words and your speaking eyes tell me everythings gonna be fine. Now your walking away. With heavy steps and even a heavier heart and there's nothing we can do about that. it's just hard since I didnt even had the chance to say my goodbye and tell you that i love you. YOU TAKE CARE MY ALMOST KNIGHT AND SHINING HERO 

 

 

TIGILAN NIO AKO~

 

ANU BA? ilan beses ko ba kailangan sabihin to, Bakit paulit ulit nio nalang akong tinatanong tungkol sa bagay na to? Hirap na Hirap nakong mag explain. tapos hanggang ngayon hindi nio pa rin naiintindihan. Bakit ba hindi mawala wala sa isip nio ang bagay nato tungkol sakin? Parang awa nio na, PAKI SABI SA MGA TAONG MAKITID ANG UTAK TUNGKOL SA SASABIHIN KO.

 

HINDI AKO DINOSAUR~

 

FROM: THESAURUS!

 

AND SO IT HAPPENED.

My ex and i were supposed to have our 2nd date on my restday but unfortunately something came up so he had to postpone it. Never thought that it would happen 2 days after my restday. My ex called me one afternoon just to explain why he had to cancel and being the temptress that i am, i asked him if he would like it if we can see each other that night he said it's ok with him so we went out. While we were having dinner, He asked me if i remember what i told him about taking care of him and feeding him to make him chubby (he's thin and im a sucker for plump guys)and that made him think of us living together or something to that effect and he was seriously reconsidering that set-up. and that blew me off, coz that is such a big decision and it's such a commitment and honestly i am not ready or mature enough for that kind of set-up. So i said things aren't smooth enough on both our families for us to venture into that kind of situation.

 

That night i was wearing just a simple but sexy outfit and being the conservative guy that he is, of course he had comments about what i am wearing and that i should have a jacket or something to cover me up. Duh, he was so weary when i was checking his wallet then i found out he had a discount card for a motel and a condom on his wallet. so much for being conservative. DARN~ he wanted to explain why he had those but i was already aggrevated and was consuming more than what i can handle. Although i know that he has not been sleeping around but still thinking that he is doing it with someone else was like a riffle on my heart. I was so drunk i hardly remember how we got home and how we ended up on my room. The way he looked at me was full of intimacy but he taught i was too drunk to even respond but when he said that he has to go home. i asked him to stay and emotions and desire filled the room. He was so concerned with me coz he knew it was my first time and eventhough we had our intimate moments when we were together. doing it again after 4 yrs with more intensity was not my expertise.

Now my life will never be the same again. and having been intimate with my man is such a big thing to me, I feel so guilty knowing that he has a girlfriend and us seeing each other will make me his mistress. We dont have a relationship but having this between us is such a complication with its impact still unknown for both of us. I wanna be with him but there's  just so many factors and issues i have that i cant see myself being with him. but it bothers me that he's not mine. Im happy when were together, he still has that magic influence on me but im still holding back for some reason. I wish he's not making such a big fuss over this and i wish i can finally clear things up and hopefully enjoy whatever endeavor that we will  take on the future. may it be moments with him or parting with him completely.

 

 

peste!

Kakabili ko lang ng computer dahil dun nagapply ako ng dsl connection sa bahay. So excited ang lola mo para makapag-internet ng wan-to-sawa. ang kaso pekpek na antivirus na nakainstall sa pc ko eh pang HIV virus lang yata ang kayang patayin. ayun sobrang daming hirap at pasakit and not to mention pera para sa pagaayos ng lecheng pc ko.

 
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