Ym, maganda past time. dami mong nakakusap and nakikilala. Matagal nako merong constant chatmate and masasabi ko na he's a good person. We talk alot and he's nice to me. He's a texan guy who loves to travel. he currently in dubai and he's planning to come to the phillipines this season or maybe next january. or course he wants to see me though i'm not sure if i will. but probably i would. but let me worry about that when he's already here.

Sarap mo KUYA~ pede na 2

I dont wanna notice other guys and i dont wanna feel to full of myself, pero whattaheck, minsan lang naman ako mag feeling-feelingan so pagbibigyan ko na sarili ko, There is this one guy na nakilala ko, although before medjo aloof ako sa kanya because di ko sha feel, He's goodlooking and i know he's a good catch but there's just no spark in him. but i notice simula nung nagkausap kmi and we really had a great time then eh he's always looking at me. Last week, we had the chance to talk coz he wanted to have a picture of me, Then i found out that he liked me before but decided that it's no use to like me since kala nia meron nko BF kc nga hindi nako dumidikit sa kanya. i wanted to prove his assumption wrong pero naisip ko, mas ok nayung ganun. (SAYANG!) And another thing that makes me so "FEELING" is this old playmate that i had. in the past weeks , wala kmi ginawa kundi mag bangayan at mag away. I informed him that i'm not appreciating the way he treats me kc nga 3 days nlang kmi magkita tpos lagi pa nia ako inaaway. he said sorry and he said that that's what he like about us, pra kaming mga bata kung magasaran and then parang wala lang,  sweet as ever. The thing is, started to feel na he's mad at me. napapansin nia cguro na i dont have time to him anymore, busy daw ako lagi kakaemail kung kanikanino at lagi daw akong busy with other guys, he's happy daw that i'm starting to explore and go out more pero bigla na shang magagalit sakin. anyway so i started to change. di ako pumasok and i treated him as if he's just one of the agents sa floor, Well it worked. kc he became sweet towards me. he initiates simple things just to talk to me and for me to notice him again. One gesture that i really liked was when he was so concerned coz i only ate half a sandwich within my entire shift. And kanina while passing through the empty underpass ng ayala at 5:30 am. Bigla ko sha naalala and bigla ko sha naiisip. I miss him pero hanggang ganun na lang yun, HINDI PARIN AKO ENAMORED EH> FEELING FEELING LANG!

Daming nagbago, ang daming naganap. Minsan kaylangan talaga na sumabay sa agos kung hindi mapapagod ka lang na labanan ang winds of change. May mga pangyayaring mas gus2 mong kumain nlang ng palaka kesa sikmurain ang mga kalokohan at kagagahan ng iba. Isang gabi meron akong kaibigan na nagdrama at umiyak hanggang mangamatis ang mata at ilong niya. Laki ng baggage na dinadala nia at dahil dun pati ako napaisip, Ano ba ang mga baggage na dinadala ko. lam ko marami pa galing childhood. meron sha cnabi na nagstruck sa isip ko~ "Meron tao na mamahalin ako  kung sino at ano ako"  Magandang paniniwala pero kung tutuusin pag ang isang tao ay blinded with this mindset. pedeng hindi na nya napapansin ang mga faults nia. (EXACT CASE of my friend). Naisip ko rin if i'm gonna live up with that mindset. Can i love somebody like me? Pag inisip ko yun., siempre sasabihin ko oo dahil sweet naman ako malambing and sobrang understanding, pero bakit hanggang ngayon walang nakakarealize nun? well ako narin namn ang me kasalanan eh, i dont allow myself or anyone to know me and to spend time with me to realize that im lovable. Sabi nga ni PUMBA. last week sweet-sweetan pa kami, pero nag restday lang ako eh hindi ko na sha pinapansin and mas madalas inaaway ko pa sha. I wanna be exclusive kc, this time exclusive to myself. mahirap isipin na for somebody like me na lifelong dream eh magkaron ng lovelife eh magiging masaya na single nagyong pasko pero yun na nga cguro. anyway meron pa nman next year eh. Hahaha. Masasabi ko lang. LETSENG QA SCORE KC TO< NAGDRADRAMA TULOY AKO>

Pero kung chechembular ka jan? eto magiging itsura mo>>>

Ilang araw nako wala maisulat  ng maganda. at salamat meron akong nakitang pede isulat pero naisip ko ang korni nman nun. so eto nlang. ibinibigay ko sa inyo si mackoy. ang dream man ko~

Parang mga bata. Kung mag-away at mag asaran. Pikon nman pareho. Minsan pag tiningnan mo parang mga aso't pusa kung mag- angilan. Pero kung tutuusin dati cute pa sa pakiramdam pero ngayon world war lll na yata sa paningin ng iba. Bkit nga ba humantong sa ganito? Dati nman parang mga bata lang na naglalaro at naghaharutan? pero ngayon parehong bitter kung umasta. NYETA~ wala nmang issue. maarte lang at matigas lang ulo ko, pero sha nman nangunguna eh at hindi pa sha nagsosorry sakin so tuloy parin ang pampipikon at pangaasar. BELAT~

It's not what you think. I'm still a virgin and still single (SUYA) The thing that i wanted and needed has finally happened. The closure that i dreaded before has been dealt with.I have moved on months ago but with this closure. the chapter has been officially closed. Though in my heart this closure would open new possibilities. I'm anticipating for a sequel now though i know this would just make me hope that the future will be better. but my mind's telling me i had enough of the fake love and the blinding frienship. So i have to accept that the friendship is just a friendship and that's it.

THE UNCOMFORTABLE SURVEY.

-How many boyfriends have told YOU
that THEY love you?:
~ 3 sila pero 1 lang nagsabi   

 -Have you ever thought that you were going to
marry a person?:
~ oo nman

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it
hurt?:~  laque

-Are you happier single or in a relationship?:
~ tinatanong pa ba yan?

-Have you ever been cheated on?:
~  hindi mashado, hindi nman kc yun cheating eh 

-What is your favorite physical feature about the
opposite sex?:
~  height,eyes, chubbiness. lips nose and most importantly HANDS

-Have you ever had your heart broken?:
~  oo..madalas.

-Have you ever broken someone's heart?:
~ 1 lang pero di ko nman sha bf eh

-If you could go back in time and change things
with any of your ex's, would you do it?::
~ cguro. oo nman

-Do you believe that you are a good girlfriend?:
~  im the best

-Have you dated people who were not good for
you?:
~  yup..

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-Have you been in an abusive relationship?:
~  hindi, emotionally cgurop pero its my fault. ako ang abusive

-Have you dated someone older then you?:
~  sarap nun. hehehe oo nman

-Younger?
~  mas masarap yun. heheh

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second
chance?:
~  lagi, heheh

-Believe in love at first sight?:
~  .hehehhe. lagi kc marami nalolove at first sight sakin pero pag second nasusuka na 

-Ever dated 2 people at once?  ~  nung highschool

-Ever been given an Engagement ring?:
~  wla, ano yata bracelet o hikaw di ko na matandaan

-Do you want to get married?:
~  siempre, bukas

-Do you have something to say to any of your
exes?:
~  patikim nman

-Ever stolen someone's boyfriend?
~  yes, pero binabalik ko nman

-Ever liked someone's boyfriend
~ lahat ng me bf. gus2 ko

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?:
~  mas pa!

Ngayon na malakas na ulit ang loob ko na pumansin ng iba kc nman it's been long overdue na. pilit ko kasing iniisip na meron pa pagasa pero now na CONFIRMED ang kinakatakutan ko eh di MOVE ON and FIND SOMEONE NEW na ang drama ko. so nung una masaya dahil madami akong angels na umaaligid. tpos process of elimination eh nakatagpo ako nang WORTH my chembular. kc naman nung una suplado effect ang loko pero now unti unti na kaming nagiging close. so close na pati faces nmin malapit ng magkadikit. and to top it all up, interesado sha sakin, daming tanong, daming topics tpos he's always holding on sa mga words ko. he's so comfortable with me and he always wants me to be beside him. so eto na make a move nako to bring us to another level. ang siste. I'M A NEWLY WED. LAGPAK na nman ako sa semento.

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

 SALAMAT HANNAH

What a way to start, I've finally decided to shed off my innocence and start trying to be a little bit naughty. well i consider that having fun and being more carefree about my image as a whole. well perhaps my image isnt that good to start with because admit it in this lifetime i would always be seen as a person who is promiscuous and libido driven creature. Well if i was like that then i should stop crying for cold nights and nostalgic moments. So goodbye depressive nights and good riddance innocent image. i finally realized that the thing that's keeping me from enjoying life is my idea that i should only be with one person that deserve my full attention. well that idea is for kids. not for a 600 years old semi virgin like me.

Yeah, rumors are true that i've been using tobacco strips again. i used to smoke then i quit and now im back to this disgusting habit. Popular saying goes "I'M NOT A QUITTER" hehehe so gotta live up to that mantra. I remember my friend asking me why i went back after i successfully recovered from my smoking addiction (though i only have 2 or 3 sticks a day). He even asked me if it's because im dining alone again, NOSY bastard! yes admittingly it is, but this is my decision and my lungs to worry about in the future so dont think im into depression or something. I've been dringking alot too, not like before where i drink untill dawn. however it's still too much for me since i'm 6oo yrs old. anyway that  is just to have fun cause believe me, i feel like i've been funless for the longest time. another thing that i've been trying to master is the art of flirting, the difficult part of this though is finding someone to flirt with, recently there has been a noughty party that i attented however the "MANANG" in me still won. but in time perhaps i'll find that perfect guy to flirt with and hopefully i can stop whinning about me having no memories of how a kiss feels likes. anyway just to let you in on how crazy and how determined i am to lose my innocent (duh?!) clean living image.

 

Me nag promise sakin na magdadala sila ng SLUMBOOK para masulatan namin, eh wla parin so eto nlang pagaksayahan ko ng panahon, DAMI KC D2 English ng english, parang mga GAGO>

1.name/s? CLIO, pede din CHLOE pede din boyet o kaya christopher, bwahahaha putang pusa ng kapit bahay!

2.how many bottles of beer can u drink? di ako nag bobote eh, glass ako, chotchall ako eh, mga 2 case pag nsa mood.

3.u smoke? dati oo, tpos tumigil ako tpos ngayon minsan nlang

4.how many sticks on the average /day? minsan lang 2, kaya mga 4 araw araw

5.have u ever been really drunk? yes, mamaya ulit

6.have u ever been in love? lagi, pag meron kausap na lalake, khit nga kasabay ko lang naiinlove nko.

7.what do u do when ur in love? nagiisip ng dahilan para magaway kami

8.how long was your longest relationship? 5 years. korni nga eh

9.do u have a bf right now? meron yata, pero wla na sha eh restday.

10.do u eat isaw? yes. pero tagal ko na hindi nakakakainin nun, bukas cguro balitaan kita

11.have you tried sarsi mixed with raw egg yolk? oo tpos binuga ko sa mukha ng kapatid ko, SARAP

12.what would u do if ur bf is having an affair? magtetext sa 2366

13.does virginity matter? Yeno. gago pla eto eh. lam nman na virgin pko, gus2 ko na nga matanggal 2.

14.What do you think of kissing in public? Tira lang ng tira! para makarami

15.last time u read a book? nung college ako, nga 5 yrs ago

16.beauty or brains? donut masarap

17.who's the most competent among our presidential candidates? si mang caloy

18.our vice presidentiables? wla ako maiisip pero iboboto ko c tikboy

19.juice or softdrinks? alak.

20.when it comes to relationships, tira lang ng tira, para makarami,

annoying or odd with the opposite sex? ???? san galing to?

21.what's nice? ewan, bastos daw ako eh

22.tv or radio? mayaman kmi so sterio. yung FM/AM na mukhang ipod. bwahaha

23.have u ever been on a fight when u were in high school? nung elementary lang, dahil sa watusi

24.are u impatient? wala ako sakit.

25.when u lose something, do u turn a room upside down to get it? mayaman ako so bili ng bago.

26.when it comes to mingling and dating are u choosy? siempre pero pag iba na pakiramdam mo, pikit ka nlang

27.have you tried eating dog meat? nung toddler pako, pero maanghang eh so hindi na2loy,

28.at least 5 of the nicest people that u know? ulol, wlang taong nice, maganda lang

29. people who always give u a sound advice? meron try mo, twag ka sa 911-1111

30.do u have a journal? wala. kc wala ako ballpen eh, khit nga pencil wala ako.

31.have u had a piggy bank when u were a kid? No but I know someone who looked like a piggy bank when she was a kid.

32.when was the last time u broke a glass? ewan ko, basta alam ko face ko broken ng glass

33.can you do other things while eating? oo, kaya ko magswimming ng meron plato at kutsara.

34.when you started working, what did you do when you got paid? i did sexual favor dun sa nagbigay

35.a perfect date (place)? sa estero ng pandacan, para mukhang mga asong ulol lang na naghahanap ng makakain

36.a genie would grant u three wishes, anything that u want, what would be ur third wish? sana malapit lang bahay nmin sa enchanted,

37.salt or fishsauce? Pera na lang

38.last person that made u laugh? myself and me. 

39.are you a coffee addict? Addict! addict!

40.ice cream or chocolates? spaghetti wit meatballs.