I was broken hearted and this time it really hurt. Specially when you thought it was real and you thought you did everything just to make sure that things are going exactly according to your plan. But relationships hardly fall into plan since it involves someone else and most of the time, you have no idea what's goin on inside your partner's head.

After learning that my fairytale romance had ended. i denied it, i tried to say to myself its not over and dearly clung to the hope that it's just a bump on the road so no reason to drop it. I was angry but i tried to downplay it.

I struggled to survive and i wanna believe its not over, but it is over. no more denying, no more sugar-coating and no more rationalizing and finally, after admitting the real situation, Pain, hurt, anger and sorrow became bearable. Although im not yet 100% ok, i can say that im ready to move on, of course there are still moments when he crossess my mind and i just stop. Moments where i dont wanna see his picture coz i miss him and it makes me sad to realize what i lost coz i indeed lose a wonderful man that i wanted to be mine.

I loved you, When i met you, i said to myself "This woman could be the right woman for me. Everything i wanted in a woman and you have it". I am truly happy when i am with you and everyday i pray to the god, "please let her be the one for me". i prayed everyday but this is the kind of prayer that god cannot answer. I am sorry! ~ALLY MCBEAL

 This is the line from a man who had to let go of a woman he loves simply because he knows she is not the right woman and this made me realize, its over. i know he loved me and he tried very hard to fight for me but he knew the truth. I know people would say he didnt really loved me but for some strange reason i know he did and his mistake doesnt negate the fact that he did.

Its over between us

but it doesnt mean he loved me less.

it only means he didnt love me enough.