This event reminded me of the SALEM WITHCRAFT TRAIL in 1962, The BLACK POWER REVOLUTION and our very own EDSA REVOLUTION.

 In this age of advanced technology and supposedly civilized and rationalized society, We still find oppression, bigotry and tyranny amidts our lives.

I now wonder,

How long should anyone fight to gain what is respecfully intrinsic to one's existence?

Here's the story,,,

 The Society of Transsexual Women of the Philippines (STRAP) held it's Anniversary on the 24th of May and the girls decided to celebrate this event in Ice Vodka Bar, located in Greenbelt 3, 3rd level Ayala Center, Makati City, Metro Manila.

Before they can enter, The bouncer stopped the girls saying that the girls were "inappropriately dressed" eventhough they were dressed decently, tastefully, and most importantly just like any other human being who lives her life as female 24 hours a day. One of the founders of the the first transsexual women's support group and transgender rights advocacy organization in the Philippines, Ms. Sass asked for the manager and the bouncer was kind enough to let her in, Manager Ms Belle Castro accomodated her and very sympathetically and respectfully listened to her complain. Here's what the manager said:

1. (Referring to the sisters) That "people like them" aren't allowed in our bar every Fridays & Saturdays;

2. That that was an agreement between all the bars in Greenbelt (Ms. Belle Castor particularly mentioned their bar, Absinthe, and Café Havana) and Ayala Corporation, the company which owns the Greenbelt Complex;

3. That the reason for this policy is: "Marami kasing foreigner na nag-kocomplain at napepeke daw sila sa mga katulad nila." Loosely translated in English: "There are lots of foreigners complaining because they mistakenly perceive people like them as real women"; and

4. That they have a "choice" to implement the policy.

That's when the strap sister lose it.

Why is this kind of discrimination happening in this fucking country, and what gave the fucking foreigners the right to demand to block people like them to enter bars in our very own country?

Ok, people might say that they have it goin since they could have just avoided the incident if they dressed APPROPRIATELY. right?

but that is just blatanly stupid and utmost ignorant. Transgendered/Transexual women finds peace and balance if they see, act and live as a woman. It is second to nature so who gave anyone the right to force anyone how to dress and how to live life.

People around the world, througout History had to fight just to have the simpliest of rights, When will this end?

ANTI-DISCRIMATION LAW, WHERE ARE YOU?

coz it's really tiring to wake up everyday to fight for MY EXISTENCE AS A WOMAN!

2 weeks nakong walang ginawa kundi gumimik, kahit na workdays, gumigimik ako. after office gimik, minsan kahit 7 am palang ng umaga, nagbebeer nako, Sabi nga ni baby D, ano ba daw problema ko bakit nilulunod ko sarili ko sa alak.

Now i know why alcoholics love what they are doin, coz just like them, i do find reprieve even in a few moments.

MALATE MOMENTS:

Geisha and i decided to go out, Una nagprovidence kami and dun ko napatunayan na ang kumare ko ay total entertainer with the most impressive Coloratura voice. Then we decided to go to malate for a night of bonding. Gusto ko sana sa providence coz surreal ang klase nung ambiance dun. short tables with pillows as your seats pero grabeh, iba nanyari, maingay! and as the night went by and booze started to affect men. aba, we had 5 or 6 guys dancin in front of us. almost stripping pa nga. Kc nman yung pwesto namin may malaking salamin sa likod, so yung mga lalake pinapanood ang sarili habang gimigiling sa saliw ng maharot na music. ayaw man aminin, pero nagmukhang meron kaming private dancers bwahahaha. 6 am na kami umuwi kahit na nandun parin yung mga boys.

BAHAY MOMENTS:

Umaga, pero walang paki, inum parin.

Nagkayayaan na maginuman sa bahay kahit na umaga at umuulan. 8am nasa bahay na kami and again dun ko napatunayan na multi-talented ang kumare ko, nag mix sha ng kung anung gulay but it turned out to be the most delicious gulay na matitikman ko, (well done mare, pede kana maging housewife o kaya cook o kaya katulong, choze). After kumain, umpisahan na ang inuman at ang walang kwentang magic sing. (ngongo na kc matanda na sha at mejo sira na ang amplitheater namin) Ross was the virginal/tweetums singer while my mare was the lounge singer and ako, well nag-all by myself lang nman ako at nabasag yung give-away na merong colored sand dahil 10 millions decibels na pagbuntunghininga ko

After nun. uwian na dahil 2 pm na yun noh, at meron ng MINDGRAIN ang mga tao samin. (read: MINDGRAIN> yan yung narinig kong dahilan bakit yung pinsan nung kasabay ko sa jeep eh merong sakit sa liver, lagi daw kc nag mefenamic acid kaya ayun nasira ang liver nia) infairness totoo naman na parang me grain sa utak mo pag inaatake ka ng MINDGRAIN.

PALAWAN MOMENTS:

Finally nakapunta na rin ako sa infamous hangout ng mga naghahanap ng panadaliang aliw, PALAWAN.

3 palan ang pwesto dun. 1st palawan eh yung ordinary place na merong videoke. 2nd eh yung parang disco place (not sure about this) 3rd. yung madilim na puro kubo (not sure about this) pero dun lang kami sa 1st palawan dahil mura, chaka and single lang. Subrang amazing kc puro lalake, iba't ibang klase ng mukha ng kabadingan ang nandun, very colorful talaga. heheh. 3 lang kaming babae kaya solong solo ang LADIES CR samantalang pila dun sa MEN's cr. bwahahha. pati pagkanta colorful din, merong mga lalake ang boses kumanta tpos regine velasques and song. merong super falsetto na walang hangin, merong marunong magwhistle (i was really impressed with the guy) pero marco sison ang boses. pero di mawawala ang mga matang paikot-ikot na kala mo me hinahanap. mga lalakeng lakad ng lakad at mga lalakeng congeniality stars kc subrang friendly sa lahat,

kasama ko si madam claudia at meron na sha mga friends dun kaya ok lang kc masaya. merong guy na super friendly sakin nung una pero nung nakainom na eh hindi nako pinansin dahil lalake na ang gustong makasama, (bwahaha, expected na yun noh. hello?) merong waiter na subrang nagagandahan sakin. (pero i knew why he was so fond of me, He was vicariously living his supressed dream of being beautiful through me. ahaha)

Nga pala, napatunayan na naman pagiging luka luka ko,, kc yung friend nung kasama ko was cute and friendly, binili pa nga nia ako ng sundae sa jolibee nung kumain sila dun. (ang gulo noh, colt 45 tapos sundae??) at dahil bigay nia sakin so kinain ko na rin kahit na meron pa akong lolipop. Anyway dahil very vocal ako pag meron ako na-aapreciate , sabi ko he's very cute pero hindi sha photogenic, tawa tuloy sila ng tawa.which untill now eh hindi ko maintindihan kc i cant see anything wrong sa sinabi ko.

If i die because of this lifestyle, pakilibing nalang ako, bwahahha.

Geisha has a new photoblog and one of the entries there is about NGALA-NGALA.

At siempre nagcomment ako sa dalawang to. sumagot ba nman ang geisha na kung ganito rin ba daw ang design ng mandible ko?. In response to him, ETO ANG ENTRY REPLY ko sa kanyang tanong.

NGUSO~

2 days na restday kaya nasa bahay lang ako pero deep inside gustung gusto kung lumayas at magliwaliw pero wala naman akong pera...tsaka gusto ko sana, merong kasama pero mahirap kc konti lang friends ko tsaka hindi sila makasabay sa gimik ko. Naisip ko na mag soloista nalang ang drama ko pero ang lungkot nman nun, tsaka if ever gagawin ko yun, gus2 ko nasa malayong lugar talaga (aman polo? why not)

Sa two days na yun. ilang beses akong nagtalo kung iinum ba ako ng san mig light pampatulog, (mga 14 bottles hehe) pero dahil mainit tsaka tinatamad ko kya natulog nalang ako. Bago pumasok, nag txt si mareng geisha, nsa highway ang potah, balak na yatang magpakasagasa sa pedicab, ewan ko ba sa isang yun, nagleave ng halos one week, wala nmang pupuntahan. burnt out na daw sa work. sabagay ang hirap matulog sa office no, ang sakit sa likod ng mga upuan. Actually ako din burn out na. ang hirap na ngang hilahin ang sarili para pumasok eh. pero kaylangan eh.

so nagkita nalang kami ng kumare ko, usap usap. plano plano. kakatamad na magtrabaho kaya naisipan namin na magbusiness nalang, pero dahil tamad kami pareho, wala rin kaming napagdesisyunan ,bahala na next. time nalang.

Anyway, ang hirap ng lagay namin, subrang idle and monotonous na. ako rin nararamdaman ko ang psychological effects ng pagiging redundant ng buhay. i need spice, i need life. Nung naghiwalay na kmi, nadepress ako and i dont know the reason. basta sad lang, mejo natuwa ako sandali kc nakita ko yung ibang site ni kumare and tlagang humanga ako pero after that, balik sa dati. SHEEET gusto ko na magkaboyfriend na kaladkarin. i mean yung pede kong dalhin kung saan saan. Nga pala. I can fully say na im over na sa drop-out namin ni baby D, pero bakit ganun, after acceptance tsaka dumating and depression. samantalang ang stage of grieving. number 4 si depression tas number 5 si acceptance. ewan ang gulo.

Sa subrang wala akong magawa. nakita ko ang kutsilyo, anu kaya maglaslas ako noh? kaya lang ang pangit ng headline sakin, "Diosa, sa subrang bored, naglaslas". eeewww. hindi glamorous. talaga ngang "Idle mind is the devils playground" tanginang mga demonyo to, ginawa pang paraisong pambata utak ko.

Have a happy week everyone~ IF HINDI HAPPY, INUMAN NALANG. HEHEH

Actually it's REDCROSS, bwahahh. pero dahil mas naglandi ako dun kesa magtraining kaya redhorss training ang pinuntahan ko. Anyway it was fun pero mukhang mas madalas kmi nagpipikturan kesa nagtratraining, hehehe. in fairness marami din kmi natutunan  katulad neto>

Pero dahil likas akong malandi. Mga boys ang kinunan ko ng pics, bwahahah

Ang masasabi ko lang, masarap silang lahat sa personal pero pangit sila sa pic, bwahahah. Hindi photogenic. heheh! eto kaya try natin>

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I therefore conclude lahat ng nagtratraining sa redcross, hindi photogenic. heheh. balik nlang natin sa mas masayang bandaging! hummp~